Thank you Ate Z for tagging me in The Sunshine Award. I’ve already received a lot of sunshine awards when my blog was still a new one and I’ve been always happy when someone remembers and tags me to this kind of award since it really boosts my self-esteem as a blogger.
So moving on, let’s go to the rules.
1. Post a picture of the sunshine blog award.
2. Link back to the blogger who nominated you.
3. Share 11 facts about yourself.
4. Answer 11 questions from the blogger who nominated you.
5. Nominate 11 bloggers that brought sunshine to your blogging experience and inform them about your post.
6. Write 11 questions for your nominated bloggers.
11 facts about myself
1. I’m an accountancy student and I don’t know if I’m really that happy on the field of endeavor I’ve chosen.
2. I’m trying not to be a nerdy type but I just can’t help it.
3. I’m not already good in managing my time.
4. I want to finish the book I’m currently reading before Friday.
5. I need a vacation for six months, twice a year!
6. I’m craving for pizza right now.
7. I’m currently loving my school bag which my mom and I bought yesterday because it’s leather and I just so love it.
8. This morning, I was so mad because I didn’t like my ACBA uniform but when the AC students told me that I’ll be the reader for the mass, I was so happy and blessed at the same time. That was good vibes!!!
9. Sometimes, I just want to be alone and spend the day reading a book while drinking coffee. Or just for a day, treat myself for a date or just be productive here in Tumblr. I can’t stand the noise or even the people around me.
10. I’m excited for tomorrow’s ACBA amazing race because I’ll be the facilitator of the blue team but I’m also nervous because I’ll also be handling students which are in the higher years. I’m just a first year student guys!!!
11 questions from Ate Z
1. Where do you see yourself ten years from now?
I see myself being a successful CPA lawyer.
2. What do you enjoy doing during your free time?
Reading a book, writing anything in my journal or just being alone for quite some time.
3. Do you have an item you still keep from a long time ago? What’s the reason for keeping it? (If you don’t mind my nosiness hahah)
I really don’t quite remember what’s the thing I still keep. Maybe it’s a very small rosary given to me by Fr. Edgar for my birthday and when my mom gave me a rosary that came from Italy.
4. Something you can’t leave the house without?
Tissue because of toilet purposes, wallet and my hanky. Probably I can leave the house without my phone because everytime I forgot to bring my phone, I really don’t get paranoid.
5. Reason behind why you created your tumblr account?
To serve it as my journal.
6. Where is your ultimate dream destination?
I really don’t know where but I do want to go to the right path where will God lead me. Do you even guys understand what I meant? Because really I can’t put myself into words.
7. Something you love about yourself?
Everything. I know that sometimes I really get insecure to a person but sometimes, being myself is one of the things I love myself. It just shows how unique I am and how thankful I am for accepting what God had given me.
8. What’s your coping mechanism after a failure?
I just accept reality, talk to God and take that failure as an experience to inspire me to work hard in life.
9. What one lesson from your parent(s)/guardian(s)/someone older than you, have you stood by from the day they told you it?
"The only person you can trust is yourself." Maybe that’s one of the lessons I have stood by from the day my mom told me because I’m just an only child and no one will help me so I should stand on my own feet.
10. Favourite childhood game (like street games perhaps?)
I don’t know what to call that game. It’s already on the tip of my tongue but jeez, I don’t know.
11. How are you doing? (Good I hope! hehee)
Good and bad because there are lots of bad vibes around me and sometimes, I just put my earphones on to forget about them for awhile. It really depends on the situation though.
11 questions from myself
1. What are your favorite pizza toppings?
2. Guilty pleasure?
3. Did you ever wish you had a different name? If yes, what were the chosen alternatives?
4. Is there a book or a movie you wished ended differently? What ending did you want?
5. What is your favorite thing to do alone?
6. What’s something your parents believe that you disagree with?
7. A specific song line that means a lot right now?
8. Someone you look up to and why?
9. What three words best describe you?
10. If you could travel back in time, what is the one piece of advice you would give to younger you?
11. What is one thing you hope to see in your lifetime?
Disclaimer: The picture I used here is not mine. I found it on Google and I edited it on Pixlr.
Yesterday, we went to Subic again! But yesterday was more different than the last time we visited Subic. We were accompanied by Tito Alex and Ate Erica. I really didn’t want to go with them because supposedly, my classmates were planning to have our dance practice for our ACBA week which will be happening on Wednesday to Friday. It’s for ACBA got talent. Unfortunately, no one showed up so I went along with my family. And besides, it’s travelling and bonding with my fam bam. It’s really an opportunity I should take.
I took a lot of photos yesterday using my camera but I didn’t bother to let my mom take photos of me because (1) I wasn’t in the mood for taking pictures. (2) My face was so oily. (3) They’re wasting more time in taking pictures than spending time for quality bonding. (4) My camera wasn’t in a good mood for taking pictures so I was really mad. But despite, all the reasons I’ve mentioned, I still have a lot of good shots of the places we went to and the moments we had.
We went to Treetop but no one bothered to take the opportunity to try the challenges so they just bought a lot of souvenirs. Tito gave me a hundred peso bill but I just put it inside the pocket of my bag so that I could save it for important purposes specially for school.
We went to Sleepless Market to buy a lot of drinks and junk foods so that while travelling from one place to another, we’ll be eating inside the car. After Sleepless Market, we went to Ocean Adventure. I took a lot of photos of sea creatures there but I’ll be posting it first in Instagram or just maybe here if I’ve the time to do such a thing.
We ate at Gerry’s Grill. We ate a lot of foods but I really do want to eat sisig. My mom just stopped me because I should also be concerned of my health. So I just told my tito that I want chicken kebab instead and of course, I also ate the foods they ordered. It was delicious!
I almost cried while we were inside the car but I tried not to show them how upset I was. It’s just that no one understands me and I’m sorry if I can’t elaborate how I really felt at that time. Maybe my teary-eyed eyes were the only things that can speak the words I can’t convey.
I really don’t know if I should say that I really had fun. It was mixed emotions during our time at Subic. I was tired and I don’t know what to do because they won’t understand me anyway.
Despite those mixed emotions, I just wanna thank God for giving me this opportunity to travel and see His amazing and breath-taking creations. Thank you Lord. You’re such an awesome God!
Dear Future Soulmate,
I’m clingy, but I’ll never admit it. I’ll check my phone every 5 minutes to see if you’ve replied to something I’ve drafted numerous times in my head. I’ll get anxious when you don’t answer me back for a long time, and I’ll think to myself maybe you’ve had enough of me. Yet when your message finally comes, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said because the simple act of replying assures me that you’re still mine. At least, for the time being it will.
I’ll get jealous a lot, but please don’t misconstrue it as me tying you down. I won’t get jealous because I want you all to myself, no. I want you to be able spend time with family, friends, and everyone else in between. I’ll get jealous because maybe, just maybe you’ll find something special in someone else, as you did with me. I’ll be weary that maybe you’ll look at someone just as how you look at me, or your heart will begin to wander somewhere else.
I’m insecure, and it’s of no fault of your own. When I say something a little negative about myself, it’s not a cry for attention nor is it me wanting you to disagree with me. It’s me just being me. Before you, I’ll probably never imagine in a million years that you’d be mine. So by virtue of the fact that we’re together makes me even more insecure. But let me make something clear, I won’t be bagging on myself all the time. I know what talents I possess, what I excel in, the aspects in my physique that work in my favor, and so on. I’m just more vocal on the things which fall in the opposite categories.
I’ll possess many faults, and I’m not looking for you to fix them. I think when I finally meet you, I’ll be more accepting of these faults than I am now. All I’m asking is that you accept them with me.
I know this letter seems to be focusing on the negative things about me, and it’s quite a bit to take in… so let me make a change of pace.
I’ll always love you. When we’re finally acquainted, and we finally begin to personify the definition of love for one another, I’ll never need another definition. I’ve told myself countless times that I would never cheat on someone because I know what that feels like. I’ll love you more than I love myself and I know that isn’t too great but that’s just how I am. I’m going to fall in love with the way your smile dances across your face every time you see me, I’ll fall in love with the way you lose yourself in the things you love, I’ll fall in love with the way your voice fluctuates depending on how you’re feeling, I’ll fall in love with the way you say my name, and I’ll most definitely fall in love with so much more. I’ll study everything about you, I’ll remember the slightest details about you and your life. I’ll know what you look like when you’re upset without you having to say a word, I’ll know how you like your coffee in the morning, I’ll know how long it takes you to get ready before we go out, I’ll know most of the trivial things about you and the rest I’ll learn along the way. I pray you’ll be able to do the same as well.If you’re still reading, and you haven’t run away… I’ll probably be sitting across from you looking insanely nervous and insecure. I’d be sitting with my legs folded under me on the chair anxiously waiting for your reaction. On top of that I’ll probably be ready to burst into tears of happiness or tears of sadness.
So to end this letter, which my actual soulmate will read once the time comes… I’d like to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a reason to live again, thank you for proving to me that love really is meant for me, and thank you for being my reason to be alive.
Last Friday, July 25, 2014, we had our 3-5 afternoon classes in COMP1N but our professor just gave us a very long quiz which composed of three lessons. I’ve studied for the exam last two weeks and I wasn’t able to review again because of my hectic schedule and because I was too lazy. I’m really not that lazy, it’s just that I’m tired of college life. I just want to take a break. *sigh* So I took the three exams (exams because it was a very very very long quiz) for only 30 minutes. My classmate, Paula, told me that I took the exam only for 30 minutes while they took it for almost two hours. Even though I was able to answer the exams for a short period of time, I still felt nervous of what will be my score since I forgot some of the lessons or should I call it mental block.
My professor told us if we were able to finish the quizzes, we can already go out of the room. So I did what he told us. I looked for Sir Durante, our Theology professor, to ask a copy of the movie we’re going to watch entitled “The Chorus”. It’s a French movie by the way. I really do want to have the copy of the movie because it was so awesome!!! I gave my 8gb flashdrive to my prof since the movie was 5gb but it was still too large, same with the 16gb flashdrive I gave. I don’t know what’s the problem. So I just went to the library and spent the whole time there, I went to the fiction section and I saw a lot of new books (not literally new, they were new to me since it was my first time to saw some of the borrowed books being returned on their respective shelves). I borrowed one entitled “The Throne Of Fire” by Rick Riordan. It’s a pretty thick book composed of 24 chapters in all. I just hope that by tomorrow I can finish the book so that it wouldn’t be a hassle of adjusting myself with my hectic schedule.
After that, I decided to spend my time with my classmates. I didn’t ride in my service that day and we just went to the mall. We spent the time eating, roaming around the mall, did some window-shopping and of course, who won’t forget the crazy and funny times? We ate our dinner at Mcdonalds. “Eat fast, die young.” I’m trying to avoid fast foods but hey, it wouldn’t hurt that much since I really don’t eat fast foods everyday.
I just wanna thank Erika’s brother for giving us a ride so that we could be at our respective homes safely.
Have you ever felt that you don’t belong to a certain group? Have you ever felt that someone keeps on telling that it was your fault and the only thing you can do is don’t mind them, acting you’re not listening to them and just put your earphones on but you knew that they were talking about the thing you’ve done? Because I do.
I’m already suffering this kind of sadness which I can’t even explain what it really feels like. It’s likely to be a depression that I can’t escape since I’m always with them every morning going to school and every afternoon going home. It was Wednesday, our driver told me that I broke the lock on the car’s window because I used a great force to close the car’s door. I was shocked and I don’t know what to say or do because I really don’t know if I was really the one who broke it. He also told the students who went in the car and he always keeps on telling me to be careful and today, he even let someone open and close the door for me which is really depressing. I felt like it was really my fault. I felt like I did a really big mistake. I don’t know if he really wants me to see the obvious that I broke it. Okay, let’s say that I broke it, but he shouldn’t be telling me to be careful because I’m already trying, I am. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t want to be in my service anymore.
There’s also this guy whom I really hate because he’s so noisy. Even though I’m already having a good sleep inside the van, he would just talk out of the blue and laugh so loud which is really annoying. I hate how he will just judge my friends so easily and he feels like that he’s the most handsome guy in the world which is really the opposite. He’s so annoying and I hate him.
Of course, if there’s sadness and things which are really annoying, there’s always the opposite which is happiness. I just felt happy yesterday when this guy sat beside me, stared at me and talked to me. We talked but just a short period of time. I felt awkward because we’re there, so close to each other but I don’t know what to say because there are people who are with us and of course, will hear what we’re talking about. So I just sent him a message and through that, we’ve continued our conversation. He also sat beside me this morning but we didn’t talk in person. We just talked through exchanging SMS.
And there’s also this very tall guy in our Filipino class whom I really admire because of his height and humor, he smiled at me this afternoon. I smiled in return. You don’t know how shocked I was the first time he smiled at me. I was busy reading a book in the library and when I glanced at the corner, he was there looking at me and he smiled. I didn’t smile in return because I was in great shock and just went back to my reading. I remembered the first time he talked to me, there was an activity in our Filipino wherein we’re going to form a straight line and the first person in front will be given a word by our professor and he/she will act it to the next person until to the last person, the last person will guess what word it was and he/she will give the answer to the professor. He was the last person in line and his answer was wrong. A lot of people were already telling him what was the answer but he approached me and asked what was the answer. Like he really did approach me just for the answer when in fact, he can just ask the guy beside him. Right? The second time we talked when we were at the library, I asked him about our assignment in Filipino. My classmates didn’t know about it nor I, so I approached him and asked him about it. I had the feeling that I really shouldn’t do it but for the sake of knowing about the assignment, I did it. There was even a very long pause when I asked him. I waited for his answer but he didn’t know about it too. Did he do it on purpose for letting me wait?
Today, we had our workshop seminar for the school’s paper, The Shield. Unfortunately, my outputs weren’t chosen for a contest. I felt pressured because I don’t know if I’m really a good writer or not.
My week so far is mixed with depression and good thing, despite all of those bullshits, there are still reasons which made me smile.
Have you ever felt so excited of what will be happening tomorrow that you weren’t able to have a good night sleep? Well, yes I have and I don’t like it. I slept like almost 12 in the morning. I tried so hard to sleep but I wasn’t able to go to sleep right away, maybe because I was not using the air conditioner in the room and maybe my body clock changed again because I stayed up very late these past few nights since there were no classes because of typhoon Glenda.
I woke up quarter to six in the morning and did my very best to look good. Well, as we all know that we can see college students already wearing make up and making their very best to look very pretty but I don’t have the guts and the capabilities to do such things. Maybe if you let me read a lot of books, maybe you’ll see the beauty in me. Ha!
While travelling to school, I saw a lot of uprooted trees. It was heart breaking and very saddening for a lot of people had take good care of those trees for years but only one whirl of a strong wind can only make it fell down. And while I was inside the van, I felt like throwing up. I know that it sounds disgusting but I’m sorry, I really did feel like throwing up but I tried not to throw up. I prayed to God to heal the sick feeling I’ve felt at that time and I tried to sleep but I fell asleep when we’re already near at school and I just hate it. I just want to have a nice sleep, is it hard?
We had a Bible reflection on our Theology class and it’s quite fulfilling inside when you can teach the lessons you’ve learned from the Bible passages you’ve encountered and share to your classmates. Our professor gave us a task to make a reflection of the Bible gospel yesterday and I did my very best to reflect upon it and relate it to the recent calamities and tragedies we’ve experienced. I didn’t realize that my yellow paper was almost full of words. I became happy that making this kind of reflections doesn’t give me a hard time anymore because I always give time for reading and learning more about my passion for writing.
We had lunch at the dorm because having lunch there really saves my money. I can save ten pesos. But today, I wasn’t able to save money because I ate almost 3 cups of rice, Bicol express and liempo and I didn’t feel that I’m still full. The reason I felt like throwing up is that maybe because I really didn’t eat a lot for my breakfast. My classmates were shocked seeing me eating a lot since I’m not a fat person. Same with Mich, she ate a lot of food too.
Having fun moments with Mariella, Mich and Mary Anne at the canteen was one of the best part of my day. Taking a lot of selfies using Mary Anne’s iPad with my bae, Erikah was fun, too. I took a lot of photos using my classmates’ phone and it’s kinda amazing why I am so beautiful in the pictures. I just wish that they will upload my selfies as early as possible. *laughs*
And now I’m here trying myself to go sleep because I told myself that I’ll be sleeping early but it turned out to be the opposite. *sigh* But hey, I’ll be using the air conditioner and then, maybe, I’ll have my good night sleep.
We went to Subic last Sunday, July 13, 2014. I was with my relatives who came from United Kingdom and they planned that we should go to Subic. To be honest, I really don’t want to go because I just want to study and cope up with the lessons I missed because I went to Zambales which I’ve mentioned on my recent post.
We left here at exactly eleven in the morning. I expected that it would be early since they told us to be prepared before ten because they’ll fetch us at exactly ten. And of course, they’re customed with the other country’s culture which strictly follows time, so we did prepare before ten. But they showed up before eleven! I thought they were strictly following time. HA!
I’m already loving road trips specially if I’m in a car because of the road. You can really appreciate road trips specially if the road is very nice unlike the roads where I came from. And because I have a service every time I go to school, I also consider it as one of my road trips and I really do like my service. It’s cold inside and the music is very nice. I like our driver. He’s kind and very concerned with our studies, too.
The first three pictures above were taken when I was inside the car. I used my other lens for my shots and I really do admire how I take photos using my other lens. Even my friends love my camera but for me, it’s the lens that really does the magic in photography or maybe, how I take photos. *winks*
We went to Treetop adventure but we didn’t do any adventures because we’re scared. I’m afraid of heights but I do want to try those adventures but I’m scared. Why am I so afraid of heights? Tell me! *cries*
We decided just to go to Zoobic Safari instead and I was so happy when Tito told us that we’re going there. Not because I would be able to see those animals but because I also have the opportunity for adventures and to take a lot of photos for my blog.
I’ll be posting the pictures of the animals I’ve taken but if you’re following me on Instagram, then, you already had the idea of what I’ll be posting.
There was a “Pet Me” store in Zoobic Safari and I saw these cutie patootie dogs. I want to squish them and be mine! Oh my god! Kindly click the picture of me carrying the pup, look at my smile, I’m such a happy kid! The picture says it all! Every time someone sees that picture, they will say “You look so happy here.”, “You’re such a cutie.” and “You’re beautiful. We can see happiness on the picture.” Thank you, thank you, thank you! *smiles and blushes*
We also did some shopping with my cousin and her aunt but I just bought one thing which was a sleeveless. I bought it because there was a tiger on it. I do want to buy a lot of clothes but I’m such a kuripot person and I don’t want to spend a lot of money. When I went to National Bookstore alone, oh my god, I want to buy all the books! I want to spend my money just for all the books there. The books which are in my wish list are all there! I felt like I was in heaven. But looking through the prices, I was like “Books, why you gotta be so expensive?” It breaks my heart. *cries* I do want to spend my money for the books but I still have a lot of unread books and there are lots of fiction books in the school’s library so I didn’t bother. But when I finished reading “Eleanor and Park” by Rainbow Rowell, I regretted for not buying a book at Subic. *cries* Why am I such a kuripot person? Urgh.
We spent the rest of the night at Pier One. We ate our dinner there. I ate bbq, onion rings, bicol express and sisig. I forgot the rest.
And when we’re already going home, a police stopped us and took Lolo Acal’s driver license because he overtake. The perks of being a fast driver. So we arrived at home, 11 in the evening. And jeez, there were classes the next day at eight in the morning. I don’t even know how I can handle such stress.
I saw Ate Kat's post about a blog rate and you should just send a message saying “Hi.” to her. I'm not really into this kind of events where people rates your blog but I tried so I went to her blog and sent her a message.
After a few hours, I saw her post. I didn’t read the other blogs she rated but looked for my name immediately and I was amazed when she rated my blog ten out of ten. I didn’t know that someone would rate my blog with a perfect score and saying that my blog is wonderful. Because back then, I was a frustrated blogger and I tried so many times to beautify mine like how other bloggers beautify their blogs.
I tried myself posting a lot of book reviews, even movie reviews but it always turn out a fail one because I really don’t know how to make one. Though I’m already in the process of posting some of my reviews.
Thank you so much ate! This means a lot to me.
This week was kinda my best week so far since we only had two days of classes because of typhoon Glenda. But the worst part was we’ve experienced hours without electricity. I know I shouldn’t be complaining about the electricity since I’ve already experienced a life without electricity for a month or two because of typhoon Yolanda but I can’t help it since we’re already living in a place that really doesn’t experience any blackouts.
I’ve spent five hours of my life finishing “Eleanor and Park” by Rainbow Rowell. You don’t know guys how eager I was to finish the book and how sad I was when I’ve already finished the book. Just imagine yourself finishing a 58-chapter book and after reading it, you already don’t know what to do with your life anymore. It’s just that it’s kinda frustrating how Rainbow Rowell made such a twist in a story that the three word sentence on the postcard was not “I love you.” I’ve expected that it was “I love you.” since the story was about young love and I felt happy that Eleanor did say “I love you.” to Park for the first time but it was not. It was a three word sentence that gave hope to Park. I thought of it after reading the book that maybe it was “I am alive.” or “I am okay.” or whatever it was. It was very confusing and pretty challenging thinking of the three-word sentence.
It broke my heart, not literally, when I read the last pages of the book when Rainbow told me that it wasn’t “I love you.” She didn’t tell her readers what was the sentence since she wants to leave the young lovers like that. I felt somehow sad about it because I really am eager to know what happens next but there’s no part two of the book anymore.
Before I’ve read the book, I spent my time one day on the school’s comfort room. I heard HM students talking about the book that it was boring and not really their type. Yes, authors can’t please everybody’s taste of reading but we shouldn’t just spoil the book or humiliate the author that his/her book is boring. They’ve put an effort to do such nice books. Not everyone can make such plots and not everyone is brave enough to write them and let the whole world see it. It was one of my realizations that day. I’ve been insulting a lot of books that the plot was boring and I felt sorry about it. We don’t know that maybe I can write my own book and maybe people will say that it’s pretty boring. How would I feel? Of course, sad and not good enough. That’s why we should be careful of the words we’re letting out. Instead of saying, “The book is boring.” we should just say, “It’s okay.Try reading it.” since we have our own taste of books. We may dislike the book we’ve read but maybe our friends would like it, or even love it.
My pictures above are irrelevant to this blog post I’m making, I know that. I was too lazy to take a picture of myself reading “Eleanor and Park” because we don’t have any water supply that day. Or maybe I’ve already taken a bath at that time, I was just too lazy. I can’t quite remember.
If you guys stumble upon with gummy bears and mogu mogu drinks, they’re my favorites. They’re delicious, right? Just adding some facts about me.