Have you ever felt so excited of what will be happening tomorrow that you weren’t able to have a good night sleep? Well, yes I have and I don’t like it. I slept like almost 12 in the morning. I tried so hard to sleep but I wasn’t able to go to sleep right away, maybe because I was not using the air conditioner in the room and maybe my body clock changed again because I stayed up very late these past few nights since there were no classes because of typhoon Glenda.
I woke up quarter to six in the morning and did my very best to look good. Well, as we all know that we can see college students already wearing make up and making their very best to look very pretty but I don’t have the guts and the capabilities to do such things. Maybe if you let me read a lot of books, maybe you’ll see the beauty in me. Ha!
While travelling to school, I saw a lot of uprooted trees. It was heart breaking and very saddening for a lot of people had take good care of those trees for years but only one whirl of a strong wind can only make it fell down. And while I was inside the van, I felt like throwing up. I know that it sounds disgusting but I’m sorry, I really did feel like throwing up but I tried not to throw up. I prayed to God to heal the sick feeling I’ve felt at that time and I tried to sleep but I fell asleep when we’re already near at school and I just hate it. I just want to have a nice sleep, is it hard?
We had a Bible reflection on our Theology class and it’s quite fulfilling inside when you can teach the lessons you’ve learned from the Bible passages you’ve encountered and share to your classmates. Our professor gave us a task to make a reflection of the Bible gospel yesterday and I did my very best to reflect upon it and relate it to the recent calamities and tragedies we’ve experienced. I didn’t realize that my yellow paper was almost full of words. I became happy that making this kind of reflections doesn’t give me a hard time anymore because I always give time for reading and learning more about my passion for writing.
We had lunch at the dorm because having lunch there really saves my money. I can save ten pesos. But today, I wasn’t able to save money because I ate almost 3 cups of rice, Bicol express and liempo and I didn’t feel that I’m still full. The reason I felt like throwing up is that maybe because I really didn’t eat a lot for my breakfast. My classmates were shocked seeing me eating a lot since I’m not a fat person. Same with Mich, she ate a lot of food too.
Having fun moments with Mariella, Mich and Mary Anne at the canteen was one of the best part of my day. Taking a lot of selfies using Mary Anne’s iPad with my bae, Erikah was fun, too. I took a lot of photos using my classmates’ phone and it’s kinda amazing why I am so beautiful in the pictures. I just wish that they will upload my selfies as early as possible. *laughs*
And now I’m here trying myself to go sleep because I told myself that I’ll be sleeping early but it turned out to be the opposite. *sigh* But hey, I’ll be using the air conditioner and then, maybe, I’ll have my good night sleep.
We went to Subic last Sunday, July 13, 2014. I was with my relatives who came from United Kingdom and they planned that we should go to Subic. To be honest, I really don’t want to go because I just want to study and cope up with the lessons I missed because I went to Zambales which I’ve mentioned on my recent post.
We left here at exactly eleven in the morning. I expected that it would be early since they told us to be prepared before ten because they’ll fetch us at exactly ten. And of course, they’re customed with the other country’s culture which strictly follows time, so we did prepare before ten. But they showed up before eleven! I thought they were strictly following time. HA!
I’m already loving road trips specially if I’m in a car because of the road. You can really appreciate road trips specially if the road is very nice unlike the roads where I came from. And because I have a service every time I go to school, I also consider it as one of my road trips and I really do like my service. It’s cold inside and the music is very nice. I like our driver. He’s kind and very concerned with our studies, too.
The first three pictures above were taken when I was inside the car. I used my other lens for my shots and I really do admire how I take photos using my other lens. Even my friends love my camera but for me, it’s the lens that really does the magic in photography or maybe, how I take photos. *winks*
We went to Treetop adventure but we didn’t do any adventures because we’re scared. I’m afraid of heights but I do want to try those adventures but I’m scared. Why am I so afraid of heights? Tell me! *cries*
We decided just to go to Zoobic Safari instead and I was so happy when Tito told us that we’re going there. Not because I would be able to see those animals but because I also have the opportunity for adventures and to take a lot of photos for my blog.
I’ll be posting the pictures of the animals I’ve taken but if you’re following me on Instagram, then, you already had the idea of what I’ll be posting.
There was a “Pet Me” store in Zoobic Safari and I saw these cutie patootie dogs. I want to squish them and be mine! Oh my god! Kindly click the picture of me carrying the pup, look at my smile, I’m such a happy kid! The picture says it all! Every time someone sees that picture, they will say “You look so happy here.”, “You’re such a cutie.” and “You’re beautiful. We can see happiness on the picture.” Thank you, thank you, thank you! *smiles and blushes*
We also did some shopping with my cousin and her aunt but I just bought one thing which was a sleeveless. I bought it because there was a tiger on it. I do want to buy a lot of clothes but I’m such a kuripot person and I don’t want to spend a lot of money. When I went to National Bookstore alone, oh my god, I want to buy all the books! I want to spend my money just for all the books there. The books which are in my wish list are all there! I felt like I was in heaven. But looking through the prices, I was like “Books, why you gotta be so expensive?” It breaks my heart. *cries* I do want to spend my money for the books but I still have a lot of unread books and there are lots of fiction books in the school’s library so I didn’t bother. But when I finished reading “Eleanor and Park” by Rainbow Rowell, I regretted for not buying a book at Subic. *cries* Why am I such a kuripot person? Urgh.
We spent the rest of the night at Pier One. We ate our dinner there. I ate bbq, onion rings, bicol express and sisig. I forgot the rest.
And when we’re already going home, a police stopped us and took Lolo Acal’s driver license because he overtake. The perks of being a fast driver. So we arrived at home, 11 in the evening. And jeez, there were classes the next day at eight in the morning. I don’t even know how I can handle such stress.
I saw Ate Kat's post about a blog rate and you should just send a message saying “Hi.” to her. I'm not really into this kind of events where people rates your blog but I tried so I went to her blog and sent her a message.
After a few hours, I saw her post. I didn’t read the other blogs she rated but looked for my name immediately and I was amazed when she rated my blog ten out of ten. I didn’t know that someone would rate my blog with a perfect score and saying that my blog is wonderful. Because back then, I was a frustrated blogger and I tried so many times to beautify mine like how other bloggers beautify their blogs.
I tried myself posting a lot of book reviews, even movie reviews but it always turn out a fail one because I really don’t know how to make one. Though I’m already in the process of posting some of my reviews.
Thank you so much ate! This means a lot to me.
This week was kinda my best week so far since we only had two days of classes because of typhoon Glenda. But the worst part was we’ve experienced hours without electricity. I know I shouldn’t be complaining about the electricity since I’ve already experienced a life without electricity for a month or two because of typhoon Yolanda but I can’t help it since we’re already living in a place that really doesn’t experience any blackouts.
I’ve spent five hours of my life finishing “Eleanor and Park” by Rainbow Rowell. You don’t know guys how eager I was to finish the book and how sad I was when I’ve already finished the book. Just imagine yourself finishing a 58-chapter book and after reading it, you already don’t know what to do with your life anymore. It’s just that it’s kinda frustrating how Rainbow Rowell made such a twist in a story that the three word sentence on the postcard was not “I love you.” I’ve expected that it was “I love you.” since the story was about young love and I felt happy that Eleanor did say “I love you.” to Park for the first time but it was not. It was a three word sentence that gave hope to Park. I thought of it after reading the book that maybe it was “I am alive.” or “I am okay.” or whatever it was. It was very confusing and pretty challenging thinking of the three-word sentence.
It broke my heart, not literally, when I read the last pages of the book when Rainbow told me that it wasn’t “I love you.” She didn’t tell her readers what was the sentence since she wants to leave the young lovers like that. I felt somehow sad about it because I really am eager to know what happens next but there’s no part two of the book anymore.
Before I’ve read the book, I spent my time one day on the school’s comfort room. I heard HM students talking about the book that it was boring and not really their type. Yes, authors can’t please everybody’s taste of reading but we shouldn’t just spoil the book or humiliate the author that his/her book is boring. They’ve put an effort to do such nice books. Not everyone can make such plots and not everyone is brave enough to write them and let the whole world see it. It was one of my realizations that day. I’ve been insulting a lot of books that the plot was boring and I felt sorry about it. We don’t know that maybe I can write my own book and maybe people will say that it’s pretty boring. How would I feel? Of course, sad and not good enough. That’s why we should be careful of the words we’re letting out. Instead of saying, “The book is boring.” we should just say, “It’s okay.Try reading it.” since we have our own taste of books. We may dislike the book we’ve read but maybe our friends would like it, or even love it.
My pictures above are irrelevant to this blog post I’m making, I know that. I was too lazy to take a picture of myself reading “Eleanor and Park” because we don’t have any water supply that day. Or maybe I’ve already taken a bath at that time, I was just too lazy. I can’t quite remember.
If you guys stumble upon with gummy bears and mogu mogu drinks, they’re my favorites. They’re delicious, right? Just adding some facts about me.
I was in Zambales last July 5-6, 2014. I included year 2014 for back reading purposes, okay? We went to Punta De Uian. It’s a resort which I can say that it’s hidden even though maybe it’s kinda popular but for me, it’s hidden since we had a hard time travelling to that place because of muddy road. Thanks to the bus but jeez guys, I bet the driver had a hard time.
I woke up early in the morning and for the record, I really didn’t want to go anyway since I’m such a lazy human being and I really don’t like this kind of events wherein you’re going to stay for like how many days. I’m not comfortable with it because no privacy specially in sleeping and having your own me-time in the comfort room since there are people waiting to use the comfort room. Thanks to my uncle, aunt, cousin and my mom for accompanying me until the bus arrived because it would be really awkward being alone. I was the only freshman in the bus. So it means that I’ll be the only person who will be having her own seat. Yey! Though I really wanted that I’ll be with someone.
So when the bus arrived, I wore my jacket right away. I don’t have any plans in bringing a jacket because I don’t want to bring a heavy bag but I thought it would be really cold, I guess, so yeah, I brought my jacket. Yup, they were right. It was freakin’ cold. I slept the whole travel though I woke up when we’re already close to our destination and I saw a ranch full of horses near the resort.
When we entered the resort, how I wish I brought my camera with me but I’m such a lazy person and I don’t like bringing a lot of things, that’s why I didn’t bother to bring my camera. Even at school, I just want to bring a little bag and light things on it. I don’t want my bag to be heavy or bulky because it’s not my thing.
The resort was “Wow!” But I hate how people will always misspell my name. *insert the saddest sad face here* It’s A-U-G-U-S-T-I-N, not A-G-U-S-T-I-N. Urgh. And it was the spelling of my name which was printed on my certificate. Wow just wow!
The first activity was our eyes were blindfolded and we must find our groupmates. Since I was in the green team named “Saragnaya”. I don’t know if I’m right or wrong, guys. Then, of course, we held hands when we found our members while our eyes were covered. I felt that the one holding my right hand was a guy. You don’t know guys how I wish it was a hot guy or handsome one and I was right. Oh my god! We held hands for a long time! Jeez, I am laughing because how lucky I was at that time. *laughs*
Our lunch was a budol fight and I don’t care what people will tell me if I’m a barbaric person or whatever it was when I ate at that time because I was freakin’ starving!
We had a lot of activities. There was even one activity that I conquered my fears. I don’t know how to swim but I should do it for the team so I did it though I just held into the bamboo stick real tight and it was kinda embarrassing for my part because the water wasn’t deep anyway. But I was still afraid because I don’t know how to swim!!!
I was so sick that I wished that I won’t participate in the games but I have to. Rain or shine, we have to participate. My skin got tan and I don’t know how to recover it. Until now, I’m still a toasted bread!
I had fun, to be honest. I realized that opportunities like this should be grab so that after how many years will pass, you can say to yourself that “I did that.” than regretting life that you haven’t done such a thing.
I arrived at home July 6, 11:45 PM. And my classes the next day was 8 in the morning. I was a horrible zombie when I arrived at school but the fun and sacrifices I did were worth it!
July 17, 2014
The first time I watched “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower” when I was a junior high school student. I’ve watched the movie a lot of times but I wasn’t able to read the book since I don’t have a copy. I was only updated through the movie, book reviews and screen captures of the book.
So when my uncle bought me a copy of the said book, I was so happy and became extremely happy when I received it through air mail. I tried to finish “Fallen” by Lauren Kate right away so that I could read “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower” immediately. I finished “Fallen” just for one night and started reading the perks the next day. Because of my busy schedule, I wasn’t able to finish it right away. Thanks to typhoon Glenda, I had the chance to finish the book just for three hours. I know I shouldn’t be thankful because of the typhoon since it really destroyed a lot of places here in the Philippines but I’m sorry. Because of it, I was able to finish the book and started reading “Eleanor and Park” by Rainbow Rowell last night. I just can’t imagine myself reading the book for two hours that made me stop when I reached Chapter 34.
While reading the perks, I had a lot of realizations. That you shouldn’t be so clingy to a person like what Mary Elizabeth did. She was too clingy that made Charlie annoyed. And that Charlie’s condition should be taken seriously since he’s already experiencing it the day his Aunt Helen died. You shouldn’t be, well, uhm, just be a friend. You should also step out the line and be with your crush, that you should be honest of what you’re feeling. Not every move you make, not every care you show is love.
I don’t know if this is a good book review but hey, I tried. Maybe I’m not really good at this type of blog project.
"Every gradeschool graduate are always anxious and excited at the same time when high school life will hit on their lives. No one is prepared for this since it’s a new environment which means new faces, new activities and even the school’s culture which you’re going to encounter. Everyone always tell that high school life is the most amazing part of being a teenager which is quite true since I’ll be sharing you my high school life in a nutshell. Don’t expect too much that my life was really amazing because I bet you’ll get bored of it anyway since I’m a wallflower.
I’ve been into three schools because I’m the type of person that everyone bullied since they know that I’m not a fighter. I tried to fit in but I wasn’t able to quite fit in because as cliche as it may sound, I’m a wallflower and an introvert. I fought through my academics. I excelled in class. Even achieved the first rank just to make them hate me more. That’s the only thing I know which I can call as a sweet revenge. I never thought of fighting with them because having a negative attitude towards others will never give me success.
Everyone called me the book geek. I love books more than people which most of the school’s population became disgusted about it since we knew that nowadays, no one loves to spend reading a book except the bibliophiles. People always get shock when they’ve discovered how many books I’ve already read. I’m proud of it anyway because we all knew that books are the only things we buy that make us richer.
Through my perserverance and hard work just to be the top one in class made me feel infinite. Have you ever felt infinite because you’ve achieved success in a young age? It’s quite fulfilling and I felt so blessed.
I’ve encountered a lot of ups and downs lately but it molded me as a strong person until now.
You see, we’re all going to experience a lot of bullshits and fun moments but the only thing you need to do is just go with the flow in accordance to God’s plan just to make our high school life worthwhile.”
I wrote this during my audition for the school’s paper, The Shield. I wasn’t really expecting that I’ll be chosen as their feature writer because I’ve already mentioned here that it was hot. I can’t concentrate and focus seriously to the topic I’ve chosen. But thank God, I was chosen. You don’t know guys how blessed I am.
I borrowed a book entitled “Like The Flowing River” by Paulo Coelho from the school’s library. I just wanna thank the library for buying the books which are in my wish list. I’ve already heard Paulo Coelho’s name a lot of times and a lot of his readers told me to read one of his books or all of his books but I don’t have the time to even care about him and besides, I don’t have a copy of one of his books. So I didn’t bother or did an effort to look for it. Though I’ve suggested some of my friends including Paulo to read one of his books. I don’t know if he already encountered one since we don’t have any communication anymore because of college life.
"Of Books and Libraries" is one of the thoughts and reflections of the book "Like The Flowing River". It is a book full of his thoughts and reflections and it will move you and it will change your life into a new perspective. If someone would ask who’s my favorite author, I would answer "Paulo Coelho is my favorite author." He’s really good in words even though I’ve only read one book but it doesn’t mean that it will stop me there. I’m planning to read all of his books since the library has a lot of copies of his books. Unfortunately, some of his books were borrowed by the students and I don’t know when I’ll be reading some of his books.
Going to the main topic which is the title itself hurt me, it made my heart broken, not really that broken. I felt a slight pain inside me when he wrote the following:
Don’t expect that I would be typing the whole composition because it’s pretty long and I just want to emphasize the paragraphs that moved me.
"Of course, I still continue to buy books - there’s no electronic substitute for them; but as soon as I’ve finished a book, I let it go; I give it to someone else, or to the public library. My intention is not to save forests or to be generous. I simply believe that a book has its own journey to make, and should not be condemned to being stuck on a shelf."
"Let’s leave our books free to travel, then, to be touched by other hands, and enjoyed by other eyes. As I’m writing this, I have a vague memory of a poem by Jorge Luis Borges, which speaks of books that will never again be opened."
The poem goes this way:
There is a line from Verlainne I’ll never now recall,
There is a street nearby from which my footsteps are barred,
There is a mirror that has looked its last on my face,
There is a door I have closed for the final time.
Amongst the books in my library ( I can see them now)
There are some I will never open again.
"I felt exactly the same about many of the books I gave away: that I would simply never open them again, because new, interesting books are constantly being published, and I love to read. Now, I think it’s wonderful that people should have libraries; generally speaking, a child’s first contact with books arises out of their curiosity to find out about those bound volumes containing pictures and words; but I find it equally wonderful when, at a book-signing, a reader comes up to me clutching a battered copy of one of my books that has been passed from friend to friend dozens of times. This means that the book has travelled just as its author’s mind travelled while he was writing it.
I felt the same way too that I should pass my books to a friend and to another friend a lot of times to change lives because through books, we change. We are able to grasp a lesson from the story behind but the sad part of letting someone borrow a book is that they don’t know how to take good care of it. They don’t know how to show the amount of love to a book, the way you treat your own books. Right?
While reading and reflecting upon it, I have a thought in mind that maybe I should donate my books to the library but I’m too clingy to give them away. I don’t know, I’m still confused or I should just continue living my dream to have my own library in the future.
Last Friday, Mich and I went to the OSACA to join the school’s paper, The Shield. For the record, I found difficulty writing since the office was so hot. My sweat was pouring hard and to be honest, I found it very embarrassing. I tied my hair into a bun. Good thing, my crush wasn’t there to see how ugly I am. Though he came, he was late and I didn’t mind him.
On the sheet I signed up on, my category was editorial writing. It was my specialty as a journalist back then but seeing the topics I’m going to write. I changed my mind and I chose feature writing instead. My topic was about high school life. To be honest, my composition was trash and I don’t even know if it’s really worth the read. But I really do want to be a writer again because writing is my passion and if I can’t be a school’s writer, it would be so humiliating. Maybe I would feel that I’m not good enough.
A young college lady posted the results, my heart pumped faster than the usual function of it and I was praying and hoping that my name would be there. So I swallowed all the courage I have within and I went outside the library, and yey, my name was there.
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